
The bullies curses between his eyes…
Cursing silences between the steps it took was not sure where they want to go. Nevertheless, he went in search of the answer to so much pain, so many lost in late silences narrow, without any warmth. Failure to understand the reasons for that last sentiment that the rising each morning, and dragged him toward a life until dusk each, however, opted to follow your intuition, the same intuition that inevitably led to the unfortunate point where today was. But today would be different, even the sky is wearing gray and white Opaque, laden with essences of lead at the same time. On what looked a little surprised, somewhat ironically hopeful that this strange sky was the signal of what had been waiting for years at the bottom of his heart ...
- A package - told the man of tobacco store, while his shaky hands take the lighter bearing on the right pocket of the jacket. He opened the package of snuff, pipe filled with gestures and sparked resolved, aspired who breathes the smoke as for the first time. He threw a glance at the man of the store and went…
For the street is crossed with many people. I thought at the paradox of cities. We started - said to themselves - to live clustered in major holdouts by the need to protect ourselves from the aggressors, and yet, each of which intersect with me, are like a small tower isolation steps between the other, but without even grazed ever, all boast of their achievements, as big walls that are trying to symbolize the strength of their nation's internal affairs. All of protecting us all, all isolated, walking senseless, trying to lift the walls as high as possible, to be seen and admired, not to be adequate for the feelings that live inside it. Only empty buildings inhabitants - thought - still more bitterness if possible.
Crossed the avenue as trying to find something different to the other side, something that was new, to alter the image tedious that every morning he anchored in the body to awaken. In one corner, he saw a pair of students, half hidden among the protective shadows of a portal. On the hands below the skirt, below the blouse, and she threw timid and false moans that encouraged the boy. Sometimes the meat makes us… we bear hides for brief moments that there is nothing at the end of the tunnel - murmured to himself, while a demented laugh going through his brain - and this subtle deception, leads us to resurrect the early dreams of triumph that we parked in adolescence, full discovery of meat, and feelings ... He gave a slow and deliberate sucks his pipe… beginning to intuit, to feel like what it had to happen that lusterless and quenched August late, indulgence towards a rush, and for a moment felt like an animal, standing in a crossing without barriers, dazzled by the headlamps of an approaching train, haunted by a macabre morbidity that would not depart from this fatal last onslaught...
In sudden decided to return to his apartment, climbed the stairs in silence, and opened the door, do not bother to turn on the lights, still in the air could even smell the perfume of she. It launched the stereo, and selected a station at random, music struck him as a living thing… the notes of Ozzy Osbourne´s "Goodbye To Romance" assaulted his ears relentlessly:
- Yesterday has been and gone
- Tomorrow will i find the sun
- Or will it rain
- Everybody´s having fun except me I´m the lonely one
- I live in shame
- I said goodbye to romance
- Goodbye to friends, I tell you
- Goodbye to all the past
- I guess that we´ll meet,
- We´ll meet in the end
- I've been the King, I´ve been the clown
- Now broken wings can´t hold me down
- I'm free again
- The jester with the broken crown
- It won´t be me this time around
- To love in vain
- And I feel the time is right although I know that you just might say to me
- What you gonna do
- What you gonna do
- But i have to check this chance
- Goodbye to friends and to romance
- And to all of you
- And to all of you
- And the winter is looking fine
- And I think the sun will shine again
- And I feel I´ve cleaned my mind
- All the past is left behind again
He opened the cupboard and took a bottle of Jack Daniel's, which was half-pipe ignited again. It rose to maximum volume, left the staircase, and slowly climbed to the roof. From there supported with elbows in the railing, between drinks and smoking pipe, observed over long minutes the city, which gradually went turning their lights. For the hollow of the ladder, was heard to force the first chords of "Stairway to Heaven" by Led Zeppelin, the neighbors began to protest disturbed by the brutal scourge of bass tones through the walls. Began to fall in the night and this cloak of darkness slept their hopes of finding an answer, the solution to those who run his heart, what that very afternoon he had to leave his job, and a sound exit door to the street to find a way out… This is the end - said, along with a greeting of fingers to Robert Plant, which howl merciless his song from the loudspeakers - and moving his legs over the railing, was dropped toward her fate ...
While fell, a smile on his face was drawn, and an "I love you" torn apart in an ugly laughter escaped from his lips. At resale on the asphalt, the walls to apprehend the crows in his head were opened ... I was impressed to see where the birds came out… but all had already flown into the night progressed immutable without stopping for anything or anyone ...
So I took the pipe between his dead cold fingers and the bottle that had miraculously survived the stroke against the asphalt, and I went for a walk as usual, looking for the answer in my own train at the end of the tunnel.
Sergio Värgsson.